today

nothing special today.... just deal with day to day works....

something special this week.... don't know why, i feel this week is very looooong.... i feel very tired and i can't get some quality sleep..... dots.... i like to write them after every sentences i wrote..... maybe it's reflecting me... who always stuck to past times.....

emptiness, pointless, meaningless.

those three words are describes me the most right now. can somebody help me?

thanks.
best regards,
adi gia utama
content account << does this mean anything?

me

see subject....

I dont know why, but that word always pop up in my mind whenever I want to write subject for my blog.... maybe it's mean that I'm a self oriented person....

today I skip my lunch, because I had an important meeting, also because my stomach is full. I have a "heavy" breakfast this morning.....

It's my 8th month working as a content account in Telkomsel... still i always "overwhelmed".......

sama KOPASSUS

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ini siapa ya? lupa namanya... :D maap Pak...

Tuesday, 2 days after the conflict...

two days... or approximately more than 60 hours since the conflict. still leave a scar and pain in my heart.... emptiness and heaviness filled my heart at the same time... it's like i wanna cry but i have no energy left to cry... still have no reason to live my life... no reason to work.... just go by the flow.... make me a sick man... have no life...

my phone rings... sms from the one who still care for me, asking me whether i'm still at the office or not... surely i'm still doing things related to my works....

anyway... i don't know what else i can do, or say, or feel.........

you know.... if you feel very very very sad.... and it's like you have no energy even to take a single step....

hoping to have a better situation tomorrow...
:((

me again

............
i have nothing to write in this blog right now, but i need to write.... i need somebody to talk to........

i've just take a medicine, I feel like I'm going to get cold...

it's nice to have friends who I can talk to, ask me how am i doing.

sesaat kurasakan
kehangatan yang luar biasa
mengisi relung hati
yang selama ini masih kosong

hingga saat ini masih kurasakan
kehangatan dan keramaian itu
harapku ini tak sekejap
harapku ini lebih dari sekedar kehangatan topik pembicaraan saja
harapku hati ini bisa menyatu

teman.....
harapku kita menjadi kumpulan sahabat
yang bisa saling mengisi...
yang bisa saling mengerti...
yang bisa menjadi motivasi...

jangan biarkan kehangatan itu sebatas fisik
karena hakikatnya manusia adalah ruh
yang mengisi tubuh untuk sementara, sesaat....
utk kemudian melanjutkan perjalanannya...

teman.....
ijinkan aku menjadi sahabatmu
aku ingin memberikan arti dalam hidupmu

if we hold on together
i know our dreams will never die

I found it....

yup...

it's been a while since my last post.

i have a great experience last week. i've been trained by the indonesian millitary special force.... unforgetable experience. I met many kind of people, but they have similarity, they all have a very kind in heart.

I realized that all this time i've been a very bad person. I have less sincerity in all the things I did. in result, i have less friends. but above all that, I know I have the chance to change myself and give meanings to others people life.... at least one person have gave me a star (which I haven't realize what I did that makes me deserve that star). I will always remember that moment, the moment that I can give meanings. And that star have gave me the strength to be a better person in the future.

"if we hold on together, I know Our dreams will never end..."