:: getting worse ::

yup, it's getting worse, i don't know how to deal with it anymore. every step and every thing i do it's like leading me to even worse condition.

this morning i received a call that makes me tremble all over, until now i still feel my body "abnormal", kind of sea sick but i'm not in the middle of the ocean.....

tired....

still, i'm struggling to take control of myself (again...)
right now i'm in the condition where i have less control on myself.... emptyness is in myself now...